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Domestication

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Love's Prison

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There have been like 5 different versions of "My book" from a 20page e-book, TERCES I wrote on the same night I started to discover da Vinci's stuff. To a 120page expanded version called "Lisa Mona" which was written in real time, but was a mess. I was figuring things out as I wrote.

Then I took the time and put out a little more effort after putting a self imposed dead line on myself for the first time. It worked, I finished it! But it was.. just not quite right. It was called "The Anatomy of Mona Lisa: Love's Prison"







It was full of errors and I rambled most of the way through it. At that point I was struggling with the unknown. Am I a good writer? Does this make any sense? Would anyone like to read this? So I posted a free copy for people to read on my self publisher's writers forum. The first responce was someone saying they wouldnt' be interested going off of the table of contents, and criticized my preface - which is all he read. The f…

Portrait of Salai

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I was randomly searching through my spam mail, just in case a real email slipped through. I found one from someone else asking if I wanted to buy this painting.

The previous person who asked if i wanted to buy it said it was insured for a number over 200million dollars... Obviously since i've made only negitive money over the last 2 years, thats not really an option.. hahahhahaha maybe someday


I think it's interesting I can manage to get people to want to sell me a painting that I wrote about in my book. I only get about 40-100 hits to my site a day. I wonder how people find my site/ blog.

I did a search for "god code" and was surprised to see my blog coming up on the first search page - just because of a blog i posted mentioning it. The internet is weird.

Best of the Web:

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Interjection Five:

It was in the course of my explosion of ideas and intense writing that something rather strange happened. I know a lot of the previous stuff was pretty strange itself but that was really based on emotions and dealing with too much too fast. Everything previously was like dealing with something equivalent to a quarter life crisis. Career, money, relationship, parental, and personal stuff. – I mean to say that it wasn’t anything unique or strange. Just a guy who was finding out who he was and finally getting and accepting his problems. Put bluntly; having to go fucking crazy to find my sanity. I looked in the mirror and decided I would be who I wanted to be, not what I thought everyone else wanted.



What happened next was intellectual and .. well, I don’t have anything to compare it to.. It was what was left over after dealing with a life time of issues in a couple short weeks. Right when I finally overcame the previous problems and settled down I was presented with something unimaginably…
Interjection Three

(from Discovering Da Vinci’s Daughter)




Before my Australian revival I tried to make my outside look as normal as possible -but inside I was someone totally different. I stifled my ambition by trying to be like everyone else; to be cool and to fit in. I spent all my money on cars (I had 9 different ones by the time I was 22) and clothes and the things I was told would make me feel better about myself. I knew that my job and my life were not what I wanted but it was comfortable and easy. I was coasting and just waiting for something to happen – anything. I wanted more.



"There’s gotta be more to life, than wanting more" – Stacie Orrico



When I would write I would ponder why I felt so alienated and different, why even though I had everything - I felt I had nothing. I was always writing about how the world didn’t seem real and felt like I was trapped inside some kind of matrix. I couldn’t understand how I could be someone who I didn’t want to be. I was ashamed of w…

Interjection Two:

In the summer of 2003 I went to college in Sydney Australia to study Digital media and run away from my personal problems. I could run, but I couldn’t hide. A couple months after I got there I started waking up in the middle of the night itching all over. I couldn’t figure out what was causing it. I got new sheets, pillows, and I even tried a new detergent. Nothing could explain what was making me itch. I remember lying in bed constantly scratching and not being able to go back to sleep.

My itchiness persisted and after hours of what seemed like endless racing thoughts I couldn’t take it anymore! Why do all the roads fit together - why aren’t there more car accidents? Why does everything somehow work and who’s directing everything? How can the tv show these shows and movies and seamlessly transition to commercial? Why can you love someone who doesn’t love you back? Why is this country half a world away almost the same as the one I ran away from?? Why were the problems I left behind fo…

Raw for 30 Days - Trailer

Please watch this and send it to anyone you know with any medical problems.

Raw for 30 Days - Trailer

Please watch this video and send it to anyone you know with diabetes or any medical problems.

Raw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ynXGA6fCEgU

Please watch this video and send it to anyone you know who is diabetic or obese or has any medical problems. It chould change someone's life, or yours.

Nihilism

I came across the word "Nihilism" and didn't know what it was. I thought it was interesting after I looked it up, as follows:


"Nihilism (from the Latin nihil, nothing) is a philosophical position which argues that Being, especially past and current human existence, is without objective meaning, purpose, comprehensible truth, or essential value. Nihilists generally assert some or all of the following:


there is no reasonable proof of the existence of a higher ruler or creator,
a "true morality" does not exist, and objective secular ethics are impossible; therefore, life has, in a sense, no truth, and no action is objectively preferable to any other.
The term nihilism is sometimes used synonymously with anomie to denote a general mood of despair at the pointlessness of existence. "

American Idols, Girls 80's

80's themed, girls last 8 night.


They are getting better and better but didn't do any better than the guys last night. I think that they are very consistent and good - but no one really stood out or blew me away. I would expect Asia or Amanda or katie (cause she was in the bottom last time) to be going home tomorrow. Mom thinks it will be Katie or Asia.



Most Embarrassing moment:



Asia' Epperson - 8.5

I was an extra in a rollerskating movie, i was trying to be cool, and i totally ran into a big satellite. So it's cool.

Derek Say: "She's doing a really good, it's a fun song - and she's fun. She sounds pretty good too. I didn't diss-like it at all."

Mom Says: "It was very enjoyable."
Randy: " Yo, so i've said a couple times on here, i recorded that song with the great whitney houston. You know what, it was a tall order but thas' the way we got you here, you showed you deserved to be here."Paula: "I must admit, that I wond…

I want one

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War

“He who joyfully marches to music in rank and file has already earned my contempt. He has been given a large brain by mistake, science for him the spinal cord would fully suffice. This disgrace to civilization should be done away with at once. Heroism at command, senseless brutality, deplorable love-of-country stance, how violently I hate all this, how despicable an ignorable war is; I would rather be torn to shreds than be a part of so base an action!It is my conviction that killing under the cloak of war is nothing but an act of murder.” Albert Einstein

American Idol 8 Men

80's themed/ 8 guys left.

Tonight was the guys best night by far, they all did their best to date and the only ones who seemed weak were Luke and maybe Danny. Danny had a little controversy involving a christmas video where he said "I hope your mom dies and you get raped" or somethign, so that's not going to help him out. And another "shocker" was that David Hernandez was a stripper at a gay bar. This season is great!



What were your most embarrassing moments?

Luke Menard 7

"My sister decided to dress me up like a ballerina. "


Derek Say: "why the hell would he pick this song? He sounds like he could sing really well if he actually picked a good song. But this is not a good song, at all. Probably did about as good as someone could with it, but damn, what a dumb song."

Mom Says: "the problem with luke is that he is an acapella group singer and his voice is weak, it's a voice that needs to be blended, he's got a beautiful voice but it…

Mother Cougar vs Grizzly Bear

Damnnnn

invisible Octopus

Wtf, genius!

Lyre Bird - Imitating Sounds - David Attenborough

WOW

Lyre Bird - Imitating Sounds - David Attenborough

Woooooow, I bet this bird could totally talk. If it can make a totally spot on chain saw noise, it could talk.

Carrie Underwood - Just A Dream

“He who joyfully marches to music in rank and file has already earned my contempt. He has been given a large brain by mistake, science for him the spinal cord would fully suffice. This disgrace to civilization should be done away with at once. Heroism at command, senseless brutality, deplorable love-of-country stance, how violently I hate all this, how despicable an ignorable war is; I would rather be torn to shreds than be a part of so base an action! It is my conviction that killing under the cloak of war is nothing but an act of murder.” Albert Einstein

Carrie Underwood - Alone

Doesn't get much better than this.

Booze

Top 10 Drunk American Writers
http://www.alternativereel.com/includes/top-ten/display_review.php?id=00075

#10 - RAYMOND CHANDLER [1888-1959]


“Alcohol is like love. The first kiss is magic, the second is intimate, the third is routine. After that you take the girl's clothes off.”



#09 - FREDERICK EXLEY [1929-92]


"After a month's sobriety my faculties became unbearably acute and I found myself unhealthily clairvoyant, having insights into places I'd as soon not journey to. Unlike some men, I had never drunk for boldness or charm or wit; I had used alcohol for precisely what it was, a depressant to check the mental exhilaration produced by extended sobriety."



#08 - HARRY CREWS [1935- ]


"Alcohol whipped me. Alcohol and I had many, many marvelous times together. We laughed, we talked, we danced at the party together; then one day I woke up and the band had gone home and I was lying in the broken glass with a shirt full of puke and I said, 'Hey, man, the ball game'…

Top Creativity Killers

Top Creativity Killers
Maybe these are my problems?

"Posted by alex on February 4th, 2008
You know what it’s like. You need a novel solution, a unique design, a mind-blowing, market-changing, million dollar idea that no one has ever thought of. And every time you sit back to let your brain do its thing, the only thought that comes into your mind is…

…“What’s for lunch?”


If that’s ever happened to you, don’t sweat it. It doesn’t mean you’re not creative or that you’re obsessing about food. It just means your creative skills could have taken a whack from one of these powerful creativity killers.

Caffeine
Caffeine is great for staying up through the night when you need to cram for an exam, but not so good when you need to do more than recite facts from rote. A strong cup of coffee will cause the body to release adrenaline, raising blood pressure, tightening muscles and slipping some extra sugar into the bloodstream for a quick energy boost.

All of that is useful if you want to stay awake fo…