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The Bug Whispererer

A couple of days ago I was in my back yard tanning when I saw a cricket laying on it's back, but still twitching a little. I went to look at it up close to see if I could help it. I was like, if it's alive why doesn't it turn over? So I helped it up and over, but it just kinda stayed in one spot. I went to go get a piece of bred and got it wet and put it in front of it. It went up to it and ate a little bit but then just kinda wandered away and down into a crack in the cement. I got a leaf and covered it so the sun wouldn't kill it and let it be.

LAST Night, I was coming home at night and walked into my kitched, there was a HUGE at least 3" long cockrock running away as I came in! I was like, bastard, I'm going to put you outside! (We have had bug people come out, I dont live in a ghetto house at all, they are just stubborn) So anyways, I saw it run under this small marble table thing in there so i got a paper towl to catch it and put it outside. I turned the t…

2005: The Black Hole

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This is the cover i apparently made, I think it needs to be revised..




Since i'm back home and have access to all my old stuff I decided to go through alllll my papers and boxes of papers and journals. I haven't gotten my journals together since 2004 so I thought that would be a good project for me to get motivated to write again. I didn't realize it but I already have 2005 already put together! It's of course, phone book sized already! I think I even have a 2005 Summary and Cast of Characters already written. The pile of my 2005 journals has the lyrics to a song called "Black Hole" by Lindsay Lohan. It's supposedly 2005's theme song? And now looking back, I totally understand why! It's weird how you can realize something about your life very well, but not REALLY understand it until a couple years later. I was loosing myself (falling in a black hole) and I knew it, but let it happen anyways. All I had were some things I wrote here and there, mostly…

Why? Da Vinci, why?

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"I dig his work a lot... If we don't 'know' what we don't see, then how can we 'know' that we don't see it? If we don't open up to the possibility of 'new vision'.I tip my hat to him and he inspires me to look again also..."

That about sums up the last year of my life to a T. What if i'm right and there really are thousands of other images trapped inside the Mona Lisa and DaVinci's art? What would he really hide - what would his secrets really be? If i'm right, then why? Why would DaVinci hide other images inside his art? He definitely could, he was the greatest genius ever - but it's not "how" we need to ask. That's not important, it's WHY. Why? My Guesses: An explanation for the origin of human life An explanation for a perfect world - the reclamation of "eden" Lies we confuse as truths, and truths we confuse as lies.
hmmmmmm

Ricky Fitz

"It was one of those days when it's a minute away from snowing and there's this electricity in the air, you can almost hear it. And this bag was, like, dancing with me. Like a little kid begging me to play with it. For fifteen minutes. And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid, ever. Video's a poor excuse, I know. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in. "


Ricky Fitz is my only hero, and of course he's fictional.


" I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow le…

Noobs

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For those new to my site/ blog here are some older posts I have that describe what my book/ discoveries are about.

Love's Prison
http://derekbair.blogspot.com/2007/08/if-liberty-is-dear-to-you-may-you-never.html



Celf Centered Conspiracy Theory
http://derekbair.blogspot.com/2007/06/celf-centered-conspiracy-theory.html

and you can read the whole book online with a summary page here: itsjustlife.com/ddd








This is the Mona Lisa and another painting that was painted BEFORE her (1495) which has an uncredited painter. It fits over the Mona Lisa and combines with her to create a third image of what looks like a young girl - DaVinci's Daughter but metaphorical and painted. The Person in the painting is Salai - DaVinci's lover of 25 years. Mona Lisa is an anagram for "Mon Salai" and another version of Salai's name - Salino is "Ona Lisa" The painting of Salai would have HAD to been used in the design of the Mona Lisa for them to do this, not to mention the name game …

Yeahhhhhhhh

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I'm on the front page! woo hoooo. It's a start, or the middle of the end, not quite sure yet!

Oscar

Yet each man kills the thing he loves by each let this be heard some do it with a bitter look some with a flattering word the coward does it with a kiss the brave man with a sword! some kill their love when they are young and some when they are old some strangle with the hands of lust some with the hands of gold the kindest use a knife, because the dead so soon grow cold some love too little, some too long some sell and others buy; some do the deed with many tears and some without a sigh for each man kills the thing he loves yet each man does not die

OC.d

I was away from OC for over 6 months. Living in a cabin in a rented cabin in big bear, on a bunk bed in my neices room, and in a trailer in San Diego. Life was interesting, but fullfilling in a very strange way. It's hard for me to say that it was "bad" when I consider how bad other people really have it, but when compared to my own life it could have been some of the worst couple months of my life thus far. But in another way it's been some of the best times. I didn't ever really have that much fun, I was never really that happy, I wasn't even that productive. But what I did get a chance to finally do was think and think and think. I thought so much that I began to think about my actual thoughts themselves. What are they made of? Why do I think what I do when I do and why don't I think about something else?

I know myself pretty well - or at least I thought I did. I seem to know exactly what I'm doing somewhere inside me, even if at the time I feel li…

Oc Register Bio

I'm going to be in the Saddleback Valley News this friday. Here is the article thats' on the oc registers web site already.

It's my first non-internet article and should be going out to tens of thousands of homes.

I updated my web site, now I just gotta keep working on the revised copy of my book.

Home

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I finally moved back home. Paradise regained. Lots to do, lots of time to do it. Should be an interesting week to say the least.

Lyrics of the Day: The Fray

Artist: The Fray Song: Over My head I never knew I never knew that everything was falling through That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue To turn and run when all I needed was the truth But that's how it's got to be It's coming down to nothing more than apathy I'd rather run the other way than stay and see The smoke and who's still standing when it clears Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind Let's rearrange I wish you were a stranger I could disengage Just say that we agree and then never change Soften a bit until we all just get along But that's disregard Find another friend and you discard As you lose the argument in a cable car Hanging above as the canyon comes between Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind Everyone knows I'm inOver my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime S…
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Lyrics of the Day - Everything is Everything

Artist: Lauryn Hill Song: Everything is Everything Everything is everything What is meant to be, will be After winter, must come spring Change, it comes eventually
I wrote these words for everyone Who struggles in their youth Who won't accept deception Instead of what is truth It seems we lose the game, Before we even start to play Who made these rules? We're so confused Easily led astray Let me tell ya that Everything is everything Everything is everything After winter, must come spring Everything is everything
I philosophyPossibly speak tongues Beat drum, Abyssinian, street Baptist Rap this in fine linenFrom the beginning My practice extending across the atlas I begat this Flippin' in the ghetto on a dirty mattress You can't match this rapper / actress More powerful than two Cleopatras Bomb graffiti on the tomb of Nefertiti MCs ain't ready to take it to the Serengeti My rhymes is heavy like the mind of Sister BettyL. Boogie spars with stars and constellations Then came down for a little conve…

Lyrics of the Day - In the Middle

Artist: Jimmy Eat World Song: In the Middle Hey, don't write yourself off yet It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just try your best, try everything you can. And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away. [Chorus] It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride. Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright). Hey, you know they're all the same. You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in. Live right now. Yeah, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else. [Chorus x2] It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride. Everything (everything) will be just fine, everything (everything) will be alright (alright). Hey, don't write yourself off yet. It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just do your best, do everything you can. And don't you worry what the bitter hear…

Lyrics of the Day: Toby Lightman - Everyday

Artist: Toby lightman
Song: Everyday
Album: Little Things


"Everyday is a struggle between what I wanna say
And what I should keep to myself
And the words that manage to leave my lips
Don't hurt me, but they hurt everyone else
And I find myself in need of a pause
I'm not sure why,
but I think that it's because
Of this desire to be what others want me to be
Which is nothing close to me

[Chorus:]

But I'll see better when the smoke clears
When the smoke clears inside my head
And I can listen
when the screaming doesn't repeat everything I've said
And all that remains me and who I am at the end of the day
And this happens everyday
Everyday is a battle between what I wanna know
And what I don't wanna figure out
And everything in between in these thoughts of mine
That you know I can't live with out
And I find myself in need of a pause
I'm not sure why, but I think that it's because
Of this desire to be what others want me to be
Which is nothing close to me"…

Lyrics of the Day: Toby Lightman - Leave it inside

Artist: Toby lightman
Song: Leave It Inside
Album: Little Things


I see no need to go through the same situation
Always so complicated with these relations
So I got to get away
Knowing that my heart will stray
Handling more than I canWhy the same old story again?

chorus:
I think it's time for a change'
Cause I'm tired of these games
I'm gonna leave it inside'
Cause I'm all right on the outside
And I'm tired of this raine
And I'm tired of the shame
I'm gonna leave it inside'
Cause I'm all right on the outside
Trying so hard to make it work out,
but I can live without
All of these silly games that I know nothing about
This is getting way out of hand
Fallin down, unable to stand
Emotions I've chosen to ignore
Do I know what I'm looking for?

chorus

I'm a little tired, I'm gonna leave it inside
I'm a little tired, I'm gonna leave it inside
I think it's time for a change'
Cause I'm tired of these games
I'm gonna leave it inside'
Caus…

Chupakabra?

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A lady in Texas found a dead chupicabra on the side of the road. I knew that blood licking, goat munching, chicken licker was real! There were too many reports of it that made no sense at all. There are no known animals that fit the description and way too many people seeing the same thing. WtF is it though? A retarded little monkey thing? Or some kind of bat creature? I mean what kind of animal is it most like? A weasel? It didn't have much hair though. The only mammals without much hair are humans and elephants and obviously it's not an elephant! There are hairless rats and dogs but those are usually bred that way. Maybe it's like an escaped hairless dog from mexico that evolved into a blood sucking monster? hmmm That's what it looks like to me. Like an ugly pig had a baby with a mexican hairless dog? It's so gross

Iran and Gambia (i think) announced that they found an herbal cure for AIDS. Now that's good news! Lets get that stuff out there! But what's in…

Da Vinci's Technique for painting

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""Using a scientific device to analyze Leonardo's "Madonna of the Yarnwinder" painting, researchers at the University of Florence said they were able to pinpoint virtually every stroke made by the famous Italian artist on the oil masterpiece. That showed the Leonardo avoided mixing colors on a painter's palette like his contemporaries did. Instead, he applied thin layers of paint directly on the canvas in different colors one on top of the other to create a rich texture. "That Leonardo used the "velature" technique is already known, he himself wrote that in a treaty, but for the first time we have managed to reconstruct his work step by step, like as if watching him while he painted," said Cecilia Frosinini, one of the researchers. "We have been able to understand what type of painting materials he used, how many layers of colors were applied and in what thickness and sequence." ""
LINK TO THE NEWS ARTICLE


So Da Vinci i…